And the train of His robe filled the place ...

 In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lifted up, and the train of His robe filled the temple. Isaiah 6:1-2

My eyes are lifted high, towards You my King. I see you enthroned. All majestic, all exalted! 

Your train hangs down and sweeps across the place, oh Lord you are SO holy. 

The train of Your robe filled the place, it occupied every spot. It covered every shame. 

I lift my hands high and hold onto parts of your robe’s train. With every move, the train becomes longer as you hand me victories like back in the days, the more enemies a king conquered, the longer the train of his robe became. The train of Your robe is so long and every piece of it is filled with Your great conquering power over all evil. I move and the train of Your robe overshadows me. Your angels are moving around me. I am surrounded by Your unending glory. I want to breathe your glory.

In Your holiness, I see glory. In Your beauty, I see restoration. In Your wounds, I see healing. In your eyes; I see desire. You are magnificent Lord. In You, I find my strength and my security.

Into the depths of worship

     For everything there is a season, A time for every matter under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1

But Time in Your presence is found in every season, every minute. In every breath that I take, You are here Lord and I can worship You.

I can freely stand in Your presence any time, no matter what the state of my heart is in, for You are always knocking, all the time, in my good times and my bad times, waiting patiently and passionately for me to come in and let me experience new depths into Your presence. 

Oh Jesus, when I stand in Your presence, my soul is awakened and all it needs is You.

In Your presence, I give you my all. My very all is Yours Lord. In Your presence, I get into the depths of worshiping You. All I want to see is You, all I want to ask is You. When I stand before you, I do not want to take anything as You gave me Your life, what else would I need? I want to give You new offerings. I want to give You a new song - a new expression of my love to You. I am forever indebted to you My Jesus. During those precious moments spent with You, into the depths of worshiping You My King, I enter a new realm of worship. I get lost in those new depths with You. I am undone. 

When storms swirl around me, I go against the wind with You. We swirl and twirl together. We go higher and above the storms, You trample my enemies. You take control over my hands and my fingers and train my hands for war and my fingers for battle. Your hands over my hands, you fight for me. You sift my enemies like wheat. We move together on the rhythm of the longing desires You have for me. You beat my struggles and they become like fine dust, in Your heavenly presence. You hold me tight and raise me above every wave. We enter together inside the wave of victory. You hand me victories in my hand. You are an awesome God. You are my champion. We rejoice and laugh out loud together at the face of the enemy. The enemy will not and cannot rejoice over me because of You, Lord. My heart will not fear for I am wrapped in your robe of defense. I am hidden in the depth of Your Spirit and overshadowed in Your mighty love and affection.

Oh Jesus, You are the One! You are worthy of every move, every breath, every expression in me. You are worthy My King, for in You I live, in You, I can breathe. In You, I move and in You, I have my being.

Words fail me to express what I feel when I am immersed in the depth of worship moments. I feel the fire of your jealous love. I feel your eagerness to pour more of who You are into my whole being to worship you even more and in new ways. The reason why all I want to do is give... I give You my all. I am Yours and You are mine.

Oh Jesus, your very name is Jealous. You are jealous about your relationship with me.

You are a jealous God. You know what is rightfully and uniquely Yours! I am Yours and You are jealous for me! There is no God so near to His people as you. Let my heart and mind never stop giving you a new song all day long. Let my worship be day and night. May it never stop.

Thirsty land

Oh the desperation I have for you Jesus to see your name and only your name be lifted high.
I just can't live this life without feeling every breath coming from you into my lungs, without having your blood flow in every vein and your spirit burning within me.
Here I am Lord, here I am Lord, send me, use me, do whatever you want with me. I have been created by you, I have been bought with a price, I am yours, I belong to you and only you. I belong to your heart, I belong to your kingdom. I am a citizen of  heaven.
I can't move a step without you. For in you I move, I live and I have my being.
Come Holy Spirit breakthrough my heart, create newness in me all the time to keep seeing wonders from you. Open the eyes of my heart to understand and to melt in love in your commandments and your wondrous works.
My heart is crying with deep agony to get deeper in your heart Father and know the deep things of Your Spirit. I am in deep anguish to know you profusely more. My Father and My redeemer. My Holy One. I love you Father. I love you with all that I am, I love you with all the weaknesses I struggle with, and with all my strength, I love you. Embrace me and hug me Father. As hard as you could so I can be hidden on the inside of you. You are full of tenderness, full of mercy, full of healing, full of grace. How deep is your love, your thoughts, your plans, the knowledge of knowing you!!!
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, It is high, I cannot attain it. 

The dance of intimacy

 

The dance of intimacy

    When the pastures of the wilderness overflow and the hills rejoice on every side. When the sea resounds and all that fills it; the world and who dwell in it. When the rivers clap their hands, and the mountains sing together for joy before the Lord.

When before His eyes like blazing fire, the mountains are scattered and the hills bowed.

When in His presence the mountains quake before him and the hills melt away. The earth trembles, the world and all who live in it.

When in His presence, everyone shouts G L O R Y. When everything responds to His presence… Every part in me will shout glory to Him.

In the midst of the congregation, I will praise you YHWH.

I will sing for you and my worship will be expressive. I will dance and every move will declare your heart to your people.

In your presence, I rejoice in your freedom. I dance victoriously before you on the beat of chains falling off and the kingdom of darkness trembling at the sound of the opening doors of the prisons.

You turned my mourning into dancing. Oh the freedom I feel in your presence my King. 

I throw off my beggars’ cloak, I jump and make my way to You. I am back again to the way you formed me inside my mother’s womb. 

I get alone with the lover of my soul. I feel his arms around me, and his majestic robe flap around me.

Just you and me. Us alone on this dance floor. Oh YHWH of my heart I am overwhelmed by the lavishness of the glory covering me. You continue to dance then grab my hand again and we run, we straight-run, we go up… You take me higher and higher. You dance around me. You spin around with great emotions that I can’t contain.

Oh Jesus you are the perfect dancer. You lead and I am after you.

Oh this sweet intimacy with you my King, you break every intimidation, every struggle, every offensive spirit that is trying to silence the freedom you want me to experience while worshiping you and offering you a sacrifice of praise.

May my dance be a pleasing aroma to you. I will dance with all my might and celebrate loudly the salvation I have received, the forgiveness that removed every guilt, the freedom that took away all heaviness. I will dance as if I have wings and by faith I will even fly like eagles. Your powerful love will lift me higher than where my feet can reach and I will raise my arms up high and find that secret place where I find rest in your embrace.

I will keep on dancing before you YHWH of my heart. I will keep worshiping you in spirit and in truth.

Eternity in my heart

 “He has put eternity into man’s heart” - Ecclesiastes 3:11

You have planted eternity in my heart.

You have put Heaven in my heart.

You have put the deep things of Your Spirit in my heart.

You have engraved your love in my heart.

You have given me Your desires.

You have set your will of heaven to accomplish in my heart.

You have put longing in my heart for your presence.

You have put a calling in my heart for more than what is here on earth.

You have placed infinitely many things in my heart surpassing all understanding.

You have planted an unshakable kingdom in my heart.

You have preordained eternity in my heart because I am destined for more.

You have placed your glorious eternal light in my heart.

You have put eternity in my heart to seek your glory.

You have filled me with eternity to experience the life-giving Spirit freedom.

You have invaded me with the melody of eternity to worship you in truth and in Spirit.

You have put eternity in my heart to not go astray and to lead me to the path of everlasting life.

You have birthed eternity in my heart to go from perishable to unperishable.

You have coated my heart with eternity, to know that I have an everlasting Father.

You made me possess eternity in my heart with all its treasures, for I am joint heir with Christ.

Oh Hallelujah, Father, I have the perfect right to have what you bestowed on your son.

You have set eternity in my heart to stand freely in the supreme court of heaven and shout: I am redeemed!

There is no condemnation for me, for I have been accepted in the beloved. I have eternity in my heart.

You have placed eternity in my heart, for you are the only desire the human heart can long for. 

Thank you, Father, you chose to set eternity in my heart where we will be having together, rich food and a banquet of aged wine. The best of the best, you’ve set in my heart. 

“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” C.S. Lewis

Lovesick for Jesus

To the love of my soul, the deep desire of my heart, I love you.

You come first.

I love you with all my being.

I love you with all my soul.

I love you with all my heart.

I love you with all my strength.

I love you with all my mind.

Unite my heart to love you even deeper.

Let it be whole only for you.

Give me understanding, that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart.

With all the desires of my heart, I love you. It's all about you. You're all together desirable. Oh Jesus, I love you. I am in love with you. I am lovesick.

My whole being is fixed on you. All I want is you. All my appetite is for you. My hunger and my thirst are after you. Kiss me with the kisses of your mouth. That is the most sweet.

Awake my conscious for your love. I long for more. For deeper love from you and for you.

Your love is creating a heart-burning in me. 

There is a longing in my heart for your presence. Come touch me with your glory. Let your fire burn in greater ways in my soul for you.

" What am I sick with love for? For the pearly gates?—No; but for the pearls that are in his wounds. What am I sick for? For the streets of gold?—No; but for his head which is as much fine gold. For the melody of the harps and angelic songs?—No, but for the melodious notes that come from his dear mouth. What am I sick for? For the nectar that angels drink?—No; but for the kisses of his lips. For the manna on which heavenly souls do feed?—No; but for himself, who is the meat and drink of his saints himself, himself—my soul pines to see him. Oh, what a heaven to gaze upon! What bliss to talk with the man, the God, crucified for me; to weep my heart out before him; to tell him how I love him, for he loved me and gave himself for me; to read my name written on his hands and on his side—yea, and to let him see that his name is written on my heart in indelible lines; to embrace him, oh! what an embrace when the creature shall embrace his God—to be for ever so close to him, that not a doubt, nor a fear, nor a wandering thought can come between my soul and him for ever—

"For ever to behold him shine,

For evermore to call him mine,

And see him still before me;

For ever on his face to gaze,

And meet his full assembled rays,

While all the Father he displays

To all the saints in glory." " -Spurgeon, Heavenly Love-sickness.

 

Be The Fire Lord

 Be the blowing fire from the midst of a bush where your glory illuminates the dark places.

Be the pillar of fire to lead by night and give me light. Let your cloud stand over me and lead by day.

Oh YHWH, you are present in all your splendor. I can see you with my own eyes in your cloud that hovers over me.

Be the brightness of a flaming fire covering my heart with your divine love.

Take me to your throne that is ablaze with flames, and let me experience the wonders of your marvelous loving kindness.

Be the voice in the midst of the fire. Speak to me face to face.

Be the consuming fire in my heart. Let your passion and zeal of your house burn in me like a fire. 

Be the brightness of coals of fire that burns every sin and bondage.

Be the fire that reveal and test my heart for you and your kingdom.

Take me to the top of the mountain with you and show me your glory Lord. Show me the consuming fire you showed to the Israelites.

Baptize me in fire - set me on fire for you my Jesus.

Oh Jesus, I want to run with you and if I get weary, I look at your eyes that are like blazing fire so I never stop running with you.

Be the tongue of fire that rests on me. Fill me with your Spirit and enable me to serve you in truth and in spirit.

Let your word be in my heart as a burning fire. Consume me Lord with your love.

Take my heart, Father, and place it on the inside of your fiery throne. Let the river of fire that pours out from your fiery throne, from your very presence; invades my whole being to love you with all my strength.

O people, Tell Him !!!

O tell Him, Tell Him:
He is all radiant, He has no equal.
His face displays holiness.
He is my golden One.
He is The lover of my soul.
He is like a bouquet of sweet henna blossoms.
My beloved is handsome and winsome.
He has no rival, He is so beautiful.
He takes me into His banquet house,
We raise a glass to love.
His eyes! Flashing love all over me.
Every cell in my body, every beat in my heart is filled with His love.
Oh people! This is my lover.
This is my dearest.
I am drunk with love.
He is all mine.
He is Alpha and Omega.
His fragrance is refreshing and pleasant.
His love is sweet.
His words are kisses.
His lips are dropping healing words dripping with myrrh.
He is covered in splendor and majesty.
He is my beloved, He is my closest friend.
He is the Rose of Sharon, the rarest of roses.
He is the lily of the valleys.
He is the sun of righteousness.
He is so lovely and graceful.
He is the gold of Ophir. The loveliest.
He is outstanding, the fairest among ten thousand.
He alone is my beloved.
O tell Him, every bit of Him is desirable.
He is a sachet of myrrh.
He is all beautiful and truly delightful.
He is all mine.
His love ignites in my heart flames of passion for Him.
I am in love with Him.
Oh I am lovesick.
I burn with passion for Him.
I long for more of His presence, more intensely.
Tell Him, I am not leaving His chambers.
I’ll stay with Him forever bathed in His flowing oil of love.
Drinking the sweetest wine and receiving divine kisses.
Tell Him, Tell Him : He is the One whom my soul loves.

Into the deep

 and he saw two boats by the lake, but the fishermen had gone out of them and were washing their nets. Getting into one of the boats, which was Simon’s, he asked him to put out a little from the land. And he sat down and taught the people from the boat.

When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.”

Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.”

And when they had done this, they enclosed a large number of fish, and their nets were breaking.

Jesus!! Come choose my boat, my heart, choose me, choose my life. Come with your glorious splendor shine on me, and through me.

In my Master’s hand, I yield everything. I give you all my Jesus. It is the deep of God calling out into the deep of my whole being.

I choose to yield to you My King. Let your Spirit make the breakthroughs and the miracles happen. Let my eyes see Your glory, God.

The deep calling out into the deep. 

Oh Lord, take me into the deep, where I can be consumed by you.

Take me into the deep, where I can encounter more of you.

Take me into the deep, where the unknown is known by you.

Take me into the deep, where I only depend on you, only you.

Take me into the deep where grace awaits me there.

Take me into the deep where miracles can happen.

Take me into the deep where every yoke is broken.

Take me into the deep where I can experience the long awaited breakthrough.

Take me into the deep where things are being released.

Take me into the deep where you, my king and my God, are there. 

O Lord, There is a deeper place for a deeper harvest. Oh God, let your Spirit increase the fire in my heart.

Take me into the deep where dreams are being accomplished!

🠞Dream BIG with the Almighty

Did you hear about my father?

Did you hear about my father?

Luke 15:11-24

This great man who worked hard all his life. He is that man who started from scratch knowing that one day he would have a family and children to care for.

My relationship with my brother wasn’t the best. He always wanted to study, to work with his hands and to be all the time around my father. His intention was to prove how he is a hard worker and the best son a father could ever have. He was always competing against me thinking he would earn more favor from our father. Our relationship was very dry. The only aspect that relates us in brotherhood is that we live under one roof. 

I have to say that I didn’t really bother with this because I was never attached to my family. I want to enjoy life and enjoy myself. I couldn’t even wait for my father to die to inherit that I just decided to ask for it before time. 

I have decided it is time for my father to give me my share of the inheritance. So I told him:

“ Father, the money will be mine anyway after you die - so better to give it to me now. I want my share of your estate that is coming to me.”

Now that I have all that will satisfy my needs and will give me happiness, I will start packing all my belongings and travel far away. I want to see the world. I want to finally live my life. I went to the farthest land where nobody knows me and no one would bother me saying whether what I do is right or wrong. But ... everything went wrong, I lost everything… The reality of living a sinful life shook me that I came back to my senses. I realized my need to have a father and be in his house. The need to belong and be surrounded by his presence. I decided to return at least to live like a servant in my father's house.

I spent days walking, sleeping on the dusty streets, with an empty stomach, but I kept going, I knew deep inside of me that there would be light at the end of the tunnel, because I am going to my father. All I have been thinking of is what I will be telling him? trying to make a scenario after another scenario in my mind . I can see my father's big house from far away...I can also see a man standing next to the big trees surrounding the house. I feel it is my father. Is he really waiting for me? I take a few more big steps and my heart tells me this is my father. but how would he know that I'll be returning? I was still a great way off and before anyone else could see me, before anyone else would see my shame, and how dirt is covering me..; My father had compassion on me … when I was still a great way off… seeing him running towards me, I could already feel his affection, I could smell the sweetness of his love, I could hear him welcoming me back.

He grabbed me despite the pig smell and my dirt, he embraced me and was wiping every tear falling from my eyes.

In his embrace, I think to myself: oh father...oh how I miss that sweet fragrance of fatherhood. It regenerates life within me. You give freshness to my weary body, my broken spirit and my whole being. Right in the center of your embrace, father, it feels so warm. It feels secure. It feels so good to be right inside of you. Your arms give me life, your heartbeats impart life to my dead heart, your breath blows over my soul, it comes into being and gives life again on the inside of me. Oh how I love you Abba. I want to be held in your arms forever.

In my father’s embrace, I was looking into his eyes that were pouring love and ardent affection. Looking back at me, with a burning passion, and glowing fire that was coming from his eyes. This love he has for me is inextinguishable. This look in his eyes is just unfailing. Words fail to express the love and tenderness I see in his eyes when he looks at me. The acceptance he has for me is unshakable!

Oh Father, I came to you. To rock me and swing me, in Your arms.

Oh Abba, You are ALL mine, ALL for me. You are here… providing all that I need.

Like a little child, I ran to you… you kneel down, getting so excited to embrace me in Your arms, You run even faster, you cannot wait to hold me tight in Your arms. I run to you and you grasp me, and don’t let me go.

Fatherhood flows from You. You are My Father and I am your child. You take My side, You do not reject me.

Your eyes say: I desire you, I delight in you.

Your arms around me say: I won’t leave you, you are Mine… FOREVER.

Your head leaning on my head says: I am your head, I am your glory, I am your light. I am the very exact thing you need and long for.

Sing my child, dance freely with me. I am Your First and Last. Look how beautiful you are, crowned with my mercies, my grace and my love.

Come my blameless, beautiful, holy and innocent, child…COME, let me pour more of Me in you.

He kisses me not just one kiss. His continual kisses are spilling ardent love. This great token of love, inflames my heart with new hope. Your repeated kisses restore my soul, heal my brokenness and cover my shame.

You give me the best robe to make me look like you, father.

You give me the ring and give me access to all your belongings, to recognize me in front of everyone as your son.

You bring sandals because only the slaves went barefoot, sons wore sandals! 

For you who are reading my story, I was dead and now I am alive.

Do you need to come home? Maybe you are away from the father? Do you feel his love for you? The father himself loves you.

“He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.” Psalms 40:2-3 

-saved by grace.

His beloved child,

Reconciliation and times of refreshing

 

Therefore repent and return, so that your sins may be wiped away, in order that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord. Acts 3:19

These words  have been on my mind for some time: reconciliation and times of refreshing. 

In the scriptures, times of refreshing are connected with turning  back from your sin, the major and main reason Jesus died on the cross for our sins to be reconciled with God. This decision of changing your way of thinking to live in true freedom and experience peace, is where you will experience the presence of God. 

Reconciliation is the way for restoration, where there is room for the healing hands of God to work and make all things new.

Repent - Open your heart and give room to the Holy Spirit to convict you. 

Now is the time for refreshing!

Refreshment through repentance. Inner healing through true conversion.

Maybe you are drained or you have been through lots of pain, hurt, weakness, sickness, bitterness, loss…maybe you still have open wounds and you did not experience healing or recovery. But in all these circumstances, in every situation, for how weak you are, give thanks to the Lord because it is in your weakness that you will find the strength of God. He wants to replace all those struggles and pain with Himself. This loss, this emptiness, the Lord wants to fill it with His fullness. Let these wounds be handled by Yhwh The Healer.

Oh God, you are so good. Your goodness and faithfulness surpasses any understanding. You love me and purchased me with your precious blood so I can stand in all boldness in your presence, unashamed, with no fear and be refreshed, you restore and heal my heart. You cover it with the kisses of your mouth. Oh this encounter with You, my Divine Lover, is the true communion I never want to let go. I can stand in your presence and feel your love flowing through my whole being.

Come O God, come with Your mighty power and presence where I feel secure to surrender completely to you, My Father and My God. 

Take my heart, wash it thoroughly with the precious blood of the Lamb. Forgive my sins, Father.

Bless me and let me be refreshed with your breath. Let your powerful wind of Your Spirit blow freshly upon me. Renew my strength and make me mount up with wings like eagles. Let your healing oil refresh my soul. Breathe God life into my heart. 

“Have mercy upon me, O God, according to Your lovingkindness; according to the multitude of Your tender mercies, blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin” (Psalm 51:1-2).

Thank you Father that you cover but also purge, blot out, cleanse, wash, pardon and forgive my sins. You forget them and cast them out into the depths of the sea.

El-Shaddai

 Yhwh appeared to Abram, and said to him : "I am El-Shaddai; walk before me and be whole." ~paraphrased~ Genesis 17:1

Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God. 2 Corinthians 3:5

I will rely and trust in you El-Shaddai. My mind and thoughts will never be able to imagine what El Shaddai can do. My heart will always be indebted to all the true unconditional love El-Shaddai can give. 

My whole being will never be able to contain the wonders and miracles the Overpowerer, El Shaddai, can do.

Let Your name resonate in my whole being: El-Shaddai.

Oh El-Shaddai, you speak powerfully to my heart. You make it all whole all over again, you give me a heart of flesh that is undefiled, complete and sound. 

Your blood cleanses it and it becomes all new, without spot, perfect and full of You, My all-sufficient One.

When I feel alone, I will trust in You, El-Shaddai for filling me with Your tangible presence and surrounding me with Your glory. 

In my loneliness, I come to You, El-Shaddai - come meet me in my desperation. Have Your way and break through my anxieties and fears. God of my salvation, give me freedom.

When I feel rejected, El-Shaddai’s healing embrace covers me with acceptance. 

When I feel unloved, El-Shaddai’s love enfolds me. You give me a sound heart. The very heartbeat of El-Shaddai breath life and love in me. My very next breath depends on you.

Oh God, be my El-Shaddai. Nourish me with Your love. 

Strengthen my inner being by the promises of your Word so that I may live faithful and blameless. 

Sustain me, Father.

Oh El-Shaddai, I stand in your presence, in need of nothing, because You are here in all Your fullness, My ALL in ALL. 

You are more than enough for me. You are all what my body, mind and soul need. You are El-Shaddai.

There is nothing too hard for You. With You, nothing is impossible.

With you, I feel complete. You make me perfect in Your presence. 

O my soul, let God be your El-Shaddai.

O my soul, wait silently for sounds of victory

My Yhwh, you are my champion. The One who lifts me higher than all my troubles and my weaknesses. You take me hand in hand, on your mountain and show me how tiny they are that I shouldn't fear them. You show me how the enemy wants to paralyze me. You are my champion my Lord. You open my ears and I hear your majestic and powerful voice saying I AM in the face of darkness. Your voice paralyzes the enemy and stops his plans.

I am on this high mountain with you My Father and I am not scared of the hight, I am held strongly and tightly by your powerful yet tender and loving arms.

You are not only my defender but you are my defense.
Your presence wraps me and covers me. You hide me in Your presence and warm me with your wings.
Oh my rock, I stand firmly and unshakable, waiting in silence and expecting my victory.

You meet me on the inside. You grab my heart into yours. Your fiery love melts away all hurt, heal all wounds, and gives life to the dead inner parts. You call my name in a loud voice and breath life into my whole being, my author of life. You resuscitate every dead desire and revive every given dream. You clear the road before me and we run together. Come with your Holy fire and ignite my passion to you deeper and deeper. Increase it like never before. Increase it that I cannot contain it. Let it run into my veins, let this flame always be connected to your eyes like the flame of fire. Reignite the fire my only good part, my portion forever.

You are my sure foundation and my safe place. You are my stability and Rock.

Oh how I feel secure in your arms. This comfort that I feel when I lean on you, my Father and my glory, nothing can take it away from me.

At all times, I will continue to run to you to pour out my heart with all that it carries, for you alone can cleanse it, you alone can heal it, you alone can give me freedom, you alone, you my King and my God.
At all times, I will trust you my adonai. For you alone, are rich in mercy.

O my soul, wait silently and hear the voice of the great I AM bringing glory, victories, lovingkindness, faithfulness.

Do not be moved, O my soul, wait silently for sounds of victory.